to be honest, I’ve never considered myself to be a role model. my life is more difficult at times than I have alluded to and I have been through a lot. however, at 24, I feel strangely out of place when younger people tell me they idolize me. I didn’t really have role models growing up. there was one woman I looked up to when I was in high school when I volunteered with MESD Outdoor School, and we occasionally email. but genuine role model? no. which is likely why I am more confused when I have now become a role model to many. what defines my role of being a role model?
I talked with a friend of a friend online today, and after our conversation she told me, well if you ever feel down, just even for a second, just remember you made one little girl feel important, and saved her life. I feel like this is too much responsibility for me. too much has been attributed to a single conversation. she is in a bad spot right now, and I am doing excellent. it’s just… surprising that my words and experiences can have such an impact on someone else’s life.
I live my life in a simple manner. let life happen.