new beginnings in the pacific northwest

greetings from a new state and new time zone! I moved to the Seattle-Tacoma area about a month ago and have been happily settling in ever since. I haven’t found employment yet but I did have two different interviews this week for jobs in my field, which feels great to finally have actual movement. It’s hard to enjoy my new surroundings with literally no money in my bank account but living half a mile from the Puget Sound after being landlocked for three years is simply amazing.

my birthday came and went a month ago and it scares me how close I am getting to 30 – however I know I have a ton of living and loving left in me. my kitten (ryan) has integrated well with his two new kitty siblings and is quite fond of the boy who is his age. my roommate, Deanna, and I just squeal about how adorable they are together. yes, we are crazy cat ladies.

everything feels different yet I am hesitant to update my blog. I’ve been job searching for so long and although I do have some actual prospects I am waiting to hear back from – it’s hard admitting how frustrating and lengthy this process has been. cross your fingers for me!


officially Seattle bound!

 I am moving to Seattle in 3 weeks! ahhhh! my new roommate (and close friend) Deanna will be flying into Denver and we will be driving my moving truck together over the weekend of October 19th. I can’t believe it’s all happening so quickly but it’s all official (30 days notice to my leasing office, her flight booked to Denver, etc) and it really just feels surreal. I had no intention of moving within the U.S. without securing employment first but this opportunity presented itself and I just knew that I needed this. Deanna and I both do. I absolutely love Denver and I’m already panicking about leaving this amazing city and state but hey, it will still be here. I can always visit or even move back.

Furthermore, my incredibly generous parents have gifted me with a car so I will have reliable transportation as soon as I arrive – after an overnight stop in Portland to grab furniture, say hello, and have my mom finally meet my adorable kitten Ryan. I finally feel as if my life is falling into place and I couldn’t be more excited to embrace my potential and finally be where I need to be. Big things are coming and I couldn’t be more ready or excited. Here we go.

should I stay or should I go (now)?

cheesy lyrics aside, I have been presented with a very tantalizing offer to move to right outside of a Seattle with a very close girl friend. and honestly, I don’t know what to do, although I am leaning toward Seattle. I’m originally from Portland so I most certainly love the NW but I haven’t lived there since 2004, and I don’t feel as if I am ready to leave Denver. I haven’t explored this state enough, ever been skiing or snowboarding (feel free to shame me for this), hiked a 14er, or spent enough time outside of Denver. yes, I have been camping numerous times, been to the mountains, been to concerts at Red Rocks, ran the Colfax half, went to DU, been to the original Chipotle, spent time in Boulder, went on brewery tours, went to GABF twice, played corn hole in Wash Park, etc. don’t worry, I have lived a Denver life at tad, at least.

I feel like I need a change. I clearly love Denver. but I have had an extremely difficult 3 years here. I know that moving to Seattle will not cure any problems I may have and they will certainly follow me, but I have applied for more jobs in Seattle in the past week than I have in Denver in a month. and I have no idea why. I hate moving. I don’t own a car and I’d have to buy one (and have no finances to be able to do so). I have some friends and support system here. yet I do have several friends in Portland and I’d only be a few hours from almost my entire extended family. so yes, I feel extremely conflicted on what to do. and as of now, there is no job waiting for me in Seattle. I miss the water, west coast living, Trader Joes, even cheaper rent in a much nicer apartment, slower pace of life, etc. plus it’s a new city in a familiar area.

I’m open to any insight, commentary, and advice :)

under employed to unemployed.

under employed is a term I have heard frequently in the past few years – regarding people taking positions that are well below their qualifications and level just to attain employment in their intended field (or to even just have an income). I have been under employed for the past 15 months, for I’ve been working at a restaurant. Unfortunately, that restaurant closed this weekend and I am officially unemployed. I’ve known for weeks about the closure but it wasn’t public knowledge so it’s been difficult to ask for help regarding job searching until now.

The closure is a blessing in some ways – although I enjoyed working there, I do strongly want to use my degree and qualifications and do what I know I am great at and intended to do – which is not waiting tables. However, I don’t know if I have enough time to secure employment before I run out of money and have to make some necessary life changes. Do I stay in Denver? Potentially move back in with my parents for a few weeks in Oregon? Move to Seattle and stay with a close friend? I don’t know. Right now I’m really focusing on finding a career in Denver (I typically refer to it as a “big girl job”) but I might need to find another restaurant job to help bridge the financial gap.

If anyone has any connections or leads, regardless of city or country, please please send them my way!

my relationship with running

I’m running my second half-marathon in 88 days. here are some recent insights about my relationship with running:

  • I like running but I don’t love it yet. I run alone and it’s difficult to push myself for those extra miles and extra speed. I can run 4 miles without stopping but 13 still feels very daunting, especially at my goal pace.
  • I need to run with music. I tried running without an ipod twice and it was almost disastrous. also, I run faster and for longer when I run to music that has a heavy dubstep beat. I don’t like skrillex but I’ll take a 7 minute mile over a 10 minute one! (my electro-loving friend joked that I am running from the music!)
  • how I eat affects my training (duh?). I need to be more aware of the fats/salts I intake and really strive for total health.
  • I much prefer running in the evening. I tried running before 9 am. I’m tired, the temperatures continue to increase (it’s been 100+ all week in Denver!), and I just don’t perform as well.
  • I need to include more than just running into my training. I can’t currently afford a gym membership but I do own a bike and  of course can do stretches/yoga/ab workouts at home or at the park.
  • running is not as inexpensive as people think. yes, it’s free to run outside. however, without proper shoes, gear, and a reliable app or watch, it’s difficult to perform at your maximum potential. I need new shoes and I’d really love a Garmin 110 with a heart rate monitor but combined, these will put me back about $250! plus, race registration fees are steep. I’m paying someone $80 so I can go run 13.1 miles for fun? hmm.

13.1 is looming and I will be more than ready this time.

talking about time.

now is the right time

a daily reminder on my fridge.

“I took some time out for life”. – James L. Brooks

“It’s being here now that’s important. There’s no past and there’s no future. Time is a very misleading thing. All there is ever, is the now. We can gain experience from the past, but we can’t relive it; and we can hope for the future, but we don’t know if there is one.” – George Harrison

“There is more to life than simply increasing its speed.” – Mahatma Gandhi

“L’éternité, c’est long … surtout vers la fin.” – Franz Kafka

“You may delay, but time will not.” – Benjamin Franklin

“Time isn’t precious at all, because it is an illusion. What you perceive as precious is not time but the one point that is out of time: the Now. That is precious indeed. The more you are focused on time—past and future—the more you miss the Now, the most precious thing there is.” – Eckhart Tolle

“The years teach much the days never know.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

a non-change of plans.

I’ve been applying for jobs in Denver for a while  – I do live here, after all – but I haven’t been exclusively searching until now. Turns out I live in an amazing city with a lot of great opportunities and there is no reason for me to feel unhappy or stuck. I’m now officially applying for jobs here (applied for 12 today) and plan to find a job in my field, buy a car, and potentially move to a larger apartment with more amenities. I had a quick opportunity to move out of my uber-expensive apartment at DU and got a deal on this vintage studio but I’m sick of having no space, no dishwasher, no gym, no garbage disposal, no living room, etc.

Full disclosure – I’m embarrassed that the cohort a year below me is about to graduate and some have already secured jobs (although I am totally proud of them) and that it’s taken me a year to figure out what I want to do. I don’t feel like I have much to show for the past year but there have been hundreds of job applications. maybe even one thousand. I do work full time. I am a manager. things could be much worse! and the overseas thing, for whatever reason, is unfortunately not happening (but I do still have a valid passport and a backpack and am tempted to buy a ticket to Peru or Thailand…).

so there it is. I am finally embracing life in Denver and realizing I can make it work here. the restaurant has been a change of pace and has been fun but I’m starting to hit the wall there and I want to use my skills, intelligence, experience, etc. I want to do what I know I’m meant to do and I’m going to make it happen for myself, no matter what.

p.s. one of my best friends, Jane, is running a half marathon in San Francisco and is fundraising with the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society’s (LLS) Team In Training to help find cures and better treatments for leukemia, lymphoma, Hodgkin’s disease and myeloma. please visit her website and consider making a donation (I just donated $50!).